Blog#1

I haven't touched this animal for many days and feel no remorse or sense of lose. It just doesn't matter. I do it for myself. It's like hitting the heavy bag. No, not my fat ex. The leather or canvas bag that hangs off to some corner in the gym. When it's done well you can see the imaginary opponent being hit as he or she swings and moves on the practioner. Done poorly, it looks like a gorilla swinging away at the bag.
When I say "No shame to my game", it is literal. I've drank, smoke and shot it all. Well not all. There is some garbage I wouldn't touch with your dick. Truthfully I'm not a garbage head. And no fucking way in hell was I gonna do shit like use the water out of the toilet. Mind you even I squirm when I have heard some stories. Better I keep it to that I've been around the block a few times. I don't get pumped by making it sound worse then it really was. Ridiculous are those folks who act like there shit don't stink and that they have some kind of permit or get out of jail free card. Poor Lindsey.
I will tell you that I got made love and respect for RD Jr. Homeboy was a straight up man about it all. Then he came out and got to tell them all were to put it! He got to a place where he drew the line. And that was that! I do hope that I never have that experience. Lets face it, I never want to go backwards. But at least I can roll with the punches. I take things as they come and keep on moving. Stuck on stupid is not a good place to be.
No one role defines who you are as a performer.If you allow for that then you and only you are at fault.Like I can only blame myself for my setbacks. That doesnt mean that I have to limit myself to where I can go either. Who is to say where an individual with talent and possibility can take it. Even the great Geraldine Page did Off Broadway. She was a teacher like no other. Her performances touched your heart and filled you in the audience. Even after being rejected by Hollywood she aspired to be herself. All the love, kindness and caring couldn't be stopped by the negativity of others. With role models like her I will reach for the sky. She would say"Reach", and I will!