An act of kindness

I love this old guy. Actually, thats an understatement. People tend to use words like love, blessed. Phrases like "U my peeps" and refer to eachother as though they're "Family". All to often, when in fact they really have just experienced a second of emotion and want to make a powerful statement.

When it comes to me, because of the depth of my training and conditioning there is a deeper understanding of life. You can see the superficial manner in which interaction amongst others occurs.

I value when someone does something for me. An act of kindness.

Bob here helped me when no one else would. When my own family turned there backs on me for no reason. What hurt the most was that I have overcome so much adversity in this life. I was a jumble of good and bad core beliefs. On the one hand I carried the insanity that permiates the whole of the women in my family.On the other hand I carried the hard worker, responsible man of the family qualitities that my grandfather instilled in me.It made for the kind of person that was a great starter, I just never seemed to finish well.

My martial arts instructor made headway in affectng change in me. His heart was in the right place but the hard form of the martial art "Shorin-ryu" still had me at a quandry. The soft, gentle part of my life was unbalanced. It seemed to be missing. It was apparent in so many areas of my life. I always attacked things. There was no gentle approach.

So, here I am at 50 still working on balance. Learning that being gentle doesn't mean to always give in. To let people or things walk all over you. To be present in each and every aspect of life. It may seem like a tall order. But if you slow it down a bit, sometimes even taking a step back, you can achieve much more then if you run head on throw life. Taking it easy doesnt mean you're at a stop or stand still. Because of Bob, I've learned to go with the flow. It's better to get 3 things done well, then 10 done poorly.

For today I'm not in a rush. I'll get as much as I can, done. I'll do my best. And if I die before its finished, then it won't matter. I'm done!