Time to pay up

I'm no saint and lord knows I be done more then my share of fucking up. But I eventually get it. 

     A neighbor, lets call him Jam. 2 yrs ago I warned him not to have this baby with a 17yr old girl while he's in his late 30's.If there was a real relationship and commitment it still wouldn't of had a shot in hell. His Oxys meant more to him. When he got his tax return check for over 5k he bought 2 $900. Wristwatches. He spent a measley $300. On both his baby and the mother. 

     That he's constantly borrowing slices of bread, and cigarettes are a constant. The guy makes over $80.k a year and he can't put in $2. Toward a small pizza pie. I could easily go on and on with his bullshit but the girl finally got smart and served him with papers for child support. She's on welfare in NJ and he makes over 80k and stays over her place and eats her food. It disgust me. 

     And there ain't a fuckin person alive or dead that can say shit to slander me. I would so do anything to have even this young girl over the piece of shit I wound up with!

Clouded mind

Thinking with your dick can lead to plenty of sex, plenty of trouble or both. Lucky it's been sex. 

     If sex were money I'd be a rich man. If my dad weren't so dumb and lazy he would of taught me to pursue money like his father I'd be wealthy like he was. 

     I can kid about all the great sex. But deep down I'd really like to do the things having money can afford you. 

      I'm certain that I don't want to be an old man when I have it. I don't like tour buses much!

Knowings not enough

Having tested 147 i.q. Doesn't mean much when there are powerful dark forces lashing at you. 

     Information is nothing if you can't take actions and having control is minimal. 

     Some times all you have is faith and prayer. Those can be weapons to protect and defend you, your family and all those that you love.

D for Drama

I made the mistake of allowing myself to get caught up in the drama of my life. Truth is, there is none. I just have to finish what I started. There are consequences to many actions in life. When you're at the point where it's time to pay up you pay up! Keep things simple and follow the steps.

Journals lost

Today threw me for a loop. All of my notes on so many of my experiences in the taxi and in life has been misplaced. 

     Nothing I can do about it now but start again. Now will be a time to test my memory. No doubt some things may be lost. New things discovered.